So maybe it's true that I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

Stop crying and move on Beverly. What happen has already happened. You can't do anything about it. People changed, things go wrong. But you're still you. This is life. Look ahead, move on..

Stress..

Had a short family trip to Malacca last weekend. Took a bus up and back. Stayed in an apartment suite. Feels like some condo. It's a nice and fun trip but sad to say, if there's no one home to take care of Mika, I won't go overseas again.

Left Mika at Anna's place while we were away for about 2 days and 2 nights. HER house is a semi-D, with front and back door and gardens and all. And she have a golden named Junior. Mika and Junior didn't get along very well. As Mika was quite defensive, probably due to his size. Anyway, when I came back home, first thing I did was going to fetch Mika back. When he was home, he look exhausted. And I realised there was a small wound on his right cheek. It was dried up so I didn't go and investigate more.

The following night, I found something crawling on the tip of his ear. It was a tick! Then, I found 6 more ticks from his body :( the next day, called pet lovers to make an appointment for de-tick session and have no choice but to shave bald. Sigh. The groomer said he found over 30 ticks in his paws. And yes, Mika's fur is so short now that I can't recognize him, unless he look at me in the eye. I feel so sad and felt like I've failed as a pet owner. Just feel so depressed when he is suffering. Hopefully the ticks won't come back and suck his blood. Need to get FrontLine ASAP.

Next thing for Mika is to arrange for his yearly vaccination. Need to get a blood test to check whether he have heart worm or not too. If he doesn't have, then can proceed with heart worm prevention injection. If he has, it will cost a bomb. Medication and all will cost about $800-$1k. So I pray he is healthy and don't have such problems. But if he does, I'll give up everything to let him have a better life. I don't know why but Mika is everything to me. If I were to lose him one day, I don't know what I'll do..

Everything for him is about money. I spend on him more than I spend on myself. No matter what, I will find the money for you, Mika. Just be well and healthy please. That's all I asked for. I can even take the sufferings for him. I can be in pain or sick, but mika cannot. God, please look After Mika... :'(